I just left you with strangers.
I left you with people you do not know in a place you have only ever visited.
I know they are trained and are caring and kind. I have all the access in the world to know you are safe while I am away. But knowing all of that does not make this any easier.
Even though the days were difficult and there were mostly sleepless nights these past few months, I still love being with you. I always had you close, all day long, all the time.
Until today.
I love working. I enjoy my life away from being a mother and wife. Personally, for me, for us, for our family, I’m better as a working mom. So, I know this is a necessary part of that. But it is still hard.
Oh, is this so hard.
I missed you already when I was still in the hallway. My arms ached to hold you when I walked out of the building. And here I am crying, in my car, willing myself to leave you here.
It is with love for you, for our family, and for myself, that we do this. But know, please know, my dear sweet baby, I still want you near.
